I've got 99 problems....math is 1.

Day 24 - My top 3 worst traits.

Oh my gosh, only 3? I feel like there is a 9 way tie for 1st place between my worst traits.

 I talk too much. I make really ugly faces when I'm concentrating. I am HORRIBLE at math...legitimately 6th grade status. IF that. I always leave my cup of coffee in the living room every morning instead of taking it to the kitchen.

This is just the tip of the iceberg, my friends. Let me get real with you....

3. I am a side seat driver. The WORST side seat driver-  Ugh, there is this vicious cycle that happens when Ryan is driving and I am a passenger. I tell myself that I won't comment on his driving only to find that 5 seconds later when he stops at a stop sign for a BIT too long I'm saying "oh my gosh why are you still stopping?" and then I apologize and tell myself that I won't say anything else only to hear myself saying, "are you gonna stop for that pedestrian???" And it goes on and on. It's bad. REAL bad. Pretty soon, Ryan is going to make us ride everywhere separate. I'm really hoping that I can get myself under control before that happens.

And don't worry, it's not just with Ryan. If you are outside of my family and I'm riding with you (because I have NO problem saying anything to my family members about their driving), I'm usually biting my tongue so I don't completely embarrass myself in front of someone who doesn't have to love me because we're related.

I'm so ashamed. I have a problem. I need help.

2. I'm indecisive - 

This picture encompasses PRECISELY how I feel when trying to make a decision

Terribly terribly so. I had wanted to start a blog for at least 9 months before I ACTUALLY created one but didn't because A.) I couldn't decide on a title for the blog (I'm still not totally satisfied) B.) I couldn't decide on a color scheme/design (which I recently changed from the original design.) and C.) I couldn't decide what my first post should be about.

I've also had the following conversation more times than Kate Gosselin has had to change a diaper:

What do you want for dinner?
Oh no, I don't want that.
Yeah that sounds good!! 
Actually no I'm not in the mood for that!!! 
How about......nooooo I'm not in the mood for that either. 
Aggghhhhh I don't know what I want!! 
*spends the rest of the night sitting at home eating popcorn.*

True story.

1. I have a REALLY really REALLY hard time letting things go - this one is definitely something that I need to be in prayer about. Everyday. It's bad and definitely makes it hard for me to move past anything in my relationships with others. I don't know why it's so hard for me to just move on. To get over it. Forgive and forget. And what's even worse is that if I feel that I've been wronged I need an explanation. I feel like I can't even begin to move past it unless I have a complete and broken down explanation of why. "I don't know" will send me over the edge.

I do feel like I'm making progress with this....otherwise it would be really hard to have a functional marriage. I've definitely been humbled by God more than a time or two when I feel like I shouldn't have to forgive and I'm thankful for those lessons.

Now that you know you don't want to drive me anywhere, ask me to decide anything, or hurt me in any way....I'm sure we can still be friends, right???

The math thing is what's really turning you off, isn't it?

Not all of us care about the circumference of a circle, ok???

xoxoxo

- Brit