Let's get real

Day 20 - Getting real - something I'm struggling with right now. 

I think the better question here is, what am I NOT struggling with right now?

Clearly I'm struggling with keeping up with this blog everyday in May challenge!!! Yikes! 

I'm struggling with time management right now. Big time. 

I'm struggling with not being consumed by the chocolate chip cookies that are currently in my kitchen calling out my name and the ice cold milk that's in the fridge......

BRB

Jussst kidding y'all! I've got more will power than that!!! 

SIIIKKKKKEEEE. 

Ok, but really I'm struggling with contentment. And if I'm being honest, this is a constant struggle for me.  

There are times that I feel so incredibly grateful for everything that God has blessed me with. Sometimes I seriously can't believe it! I have no reason to feel any other way.

But other times I feel like everything in my life is not enough. It's terrible! It really is. I think that my life isn't exciting enough, what I'm doing isn't enough....it's a problem. 

Why can't I just be content with being present and enjoying the now and taking it one day at a time and all that jazz? 

I know this is something that is between me and God. I definitely need to be spending more time in my Bible and take this problem to God instead of letting my thoughts consume me.

Basically, it comes down to God's plan and if I'm following that, than that's enough. That's more than enough, that's best and I need to find peace in that.

It's a struggle, for sure. I'm a control freak...so it's obviously hard for me to not be in control of every detail of my life....but how can I be? There are so many things outside of my control.

So there it is...my struggle all out there in the open.

But that's the first step, right? Admitting that you have a problem?

I call that progress.

-Brit